>>what it do xanga?

she's the type of girl that can be
so hurt but can still look at you
& smile. the type of girl who is
willing to brighten your day
even if she cant brighten her own

im not okay

but im iight though

i have only two words to say :

we've all heard them at least once.

he cheated.

it hurts so damn bad

but im not sad

he was bringing me down

i wish he hadn't

i wish i wouldn't

but i and he did.

i thought i loved him

but i know it was just a physical attraction.

everyone knew by our actions

that it wouldn't last

it was never meant to be

i dont want to cry

but i feel the tears

swelling in my eyes

people that love you try to keep you from getting hurt,

but when you don't listen to them it makes you feel even worse.

when he lies to your face

you find out by an airbrushed t-shirt inscribed with her name.

i just wish i could've changed the past

well they all say that it's all good after that last

oh man if only i had one last time before i left it all behind

i refuse to be cheated on again

i will never put my heart into another relationship

i just have to say im not okay

but i will be one day

and i wont and will never cry

ill just find me another guy

-tara shanae

*~iCoNs~*

*and all i have to say about that poem is that i have a new man and this was not written about him.

ill luv him forever, kentrell raymond + jaypee
butterfly kisses forever and ever...

hey all who inhibit the earth, or this blogring i guess. i love guys but im not a whore. can i get any more self-explanitory? fo all those bitches that like to try to push my buttons this quick message is for you: {fuck yall haters} but on another thing... i know yall are all wondering why at the end of my entries i say butterfly kisses yall* i say it because one day when i had got locked out of the house and i was so down because i had been locked out of the house for about 2 hours and had given up hope on trying to break into my own house and all of a sudden this beautiful monarch butterfly had landed on my pants and i was so amazed and then i put it on my hand and then i let it go. but what amazed me the most was when it came back and landed on my head. it made me feel good about myself when that happened. like i was at the peak of my game. and after that it seemed like that butterfly wuz like a small version of hope and faith from above that god had sent just for me to give me that shot of endurance and encouragement that i needed to be able to take chances and enjoy life. yeah and it worked. im doing great, im no longer as shy as i used to be, still trying to get out of it. but im loving being just different. just tired of following the heard i guess. its so freaking annoying watchin all the wannabes around me do what everyone else is doing. ive did it for too long. i like to be different for one and one thing only: to stick out. its one of the special qualities of me. so deal with it bitches. but dont get me wrong, i like some of the accesories though. they cute like the sparklie belts. for example, i got 3, but the one i wear the most is the orange one that ties with a ribbon. so far im the only one with a belt like that. but the belts with uniforms they kinda throw it off. a hell of alot. seriously. but the purses with the small sparklies are cute, but with the big ones is ugly>>fast forward:: damn i look good in these jeans. its okay i understand, its not your fault you cant do it like me. so im cocky; i like it and i know guys that like it so you can just get over it and deal with it cuz i know what im working with and i know how to work the odds in my favor. im lovin myself right now dont know about yall, but anyway::i love you:: and me more. so lets call it a day and say im a little over self-confident.

writing cuz im crazy like that,

butterfly kisses*

luv tara and kentrell {mwah}